3.5 Hours To Go – Reflection “Thank You Spotify”

Over the last few eight months, a constant companion has been a series of playlists on Spotify. One called #crushit, is my creation. Another,#inducingapoptosis is the creation of an incredible friend, Brian Basil who has been a constant source of positive energy and optimism.  And, a prefab play list from Spotify called Zen.

As I lay on the gurney getting ready for my first surgery, I put on Zen to calm my nerves and focus my energy on getting well. This playlist served me well through both surgeries, and restless nights in the hospital as well as at home.

#crushit and #inducingapoptosis are filled with songs that keep me focused on the prize, on #crushingit and looking foreword to a future beyond this inconvenient and temporary scourge.

Certain songs and lyrics stood out . . .

December was a particularly tough month, and the song form Alison Krauss, “Get Me Through December” comforted me.

Get me through December
A promise I’ll remember
Get me through December
So I can start again

In March, as the accumulating chemotherapy grew tougher and tougher to weather I adopted Rachel Platten’s “Fight Song” to help me stay focused and remind me I can get through this.

This is my fight song
Take back my life song
Prove I’m alright song
My power’s turned on
Starting right now I’ll be strong

In May, as the end came into view, my constant refrain became “The Light of A Clear Blue Morning,” a Dolly Parton song that the UAHS Vocal Ensemble beautifully performed during their Spring Concert.

It’s been a long dark night
And I’ve been a waitin’ for the morning
It’s been a long hard fight
But I see a brand new day a dawning
I’ve been looking for the sunshine
‘Cause I ain’t seen it in so long
But everything’s gonna work out just fine
Everything’s gonna be all right
That’s been all wrong

‘Cause I can see the light of a clear blue morning
I can see the light of a brand new day
I can see the light of a clear blue morning
And everything’s gonna be all right
It’s gonna be okay